Eyes (Dark to Light)

Did you have a terrible day? Do you feel like you’re sinking into abyss? How bad could life possibly be? Do you think you have moved on from something that happened to you long back yet it still haunts you?

Have you lost yourself? Are you not able to figure out the difference between coping up with things and moving on from it?

Every day we get up, follow our routine and then fall back again to nightmares. We keep checking cell phones for a text alert or perhaps a missed call alert. Let’s even say we got a thousand friends and a thousand message alerts on social networking sites and you reply to none but you have a smile on your face because you think you’re valuable. After​ all that can you still be at peace and sleep without nightmares.

We are blind with open working eyes. And you’re circumstances are NOT responsible for it, it’s You. 

Close your eyes, it’s all dark. So comforting and welcoming. Perhaps the easiest way to forget the pain because you can create a complete different imaginary world within seconds and escape in moments from the reality. You make yourself vulnerable to light. You get so comfortable with this darkness that you keep your eyes closed to everything and the the whole world turns around your pain and suffering which turned you blind. 

You say you have moved on but you still write about it and you show the world that you’re vulnerable and next thing you know, you are already surrounded by predators. 

Open your eyes, to truth, to colors. After keeping your eyes closed for so long, it’s gonna pinch your eyes, might hurt a little but eventually you’ll have a bright blue sky, warm and cool ocean, green land even dust waiting for you to make you realize that you’re valuable. There will be some real people who will be waiting to talk to you, some people who are worth living for.

You say you’ve moved on but when you close your eyes and go back to the dark you still are scared of it, that is called coping up. Moving on is coming back from​the dark with a smile. It is remembering the good memories of the person you lost. It is the smile you had when you have that thing. It is learning from it and becoming a better person.

But for all that you gotta open your eyes. No matter how comforting dark is, how welcoming it becomes and how easy it feels to live in, it always consumes you like a slow poison. So open your eyes, don’t be blind. Step out from dark to light. Move on, Don’t cope up.

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-Ayush Mishra




Do you think you can measure happiness? All that you’ve got, all that you could be, can you measure that? Can you determine a standard to which you could compare your pain, sorrows, joy and even Love. In a hunt for absolution, can you actually wait and do nothing but just observe?

Is beauty materialistic? Is true happiness defined by the level of satisfaction? Is it really hard to be happy? 

The world is filled with billions of people. The ones living are busy chasing absolution. The ones dying are busy regretting. 

Stop everything for a moment, drop everything you are doing. Breathe for a second and just take a look around. Look at everything, the great monstrous infrastructures, the love of nature, the birds, the animals. Feel the vibe, hear the sound of the Silence.

When you’ll do it you wouldn’t even recognize but you’ll have a smile on your face. That’s what happiness is. See through your eyes, breathe and smell through your nose, feel through your skin, the life which you have already built for yourself. Make your life from your imperfections. Stop hiding or fighting them. Your mistakes will shape you better. 

A straight line is perfect, but it’s also dead. Curves are always better, it gives you a sense of living. Scribble, make new patterns. Free your mind​ from harsh technicality, from chasing absolution, a perfect straight line and cherish your heart with the beauty of imperfections.

To be simple how about a simple cup. Break it and glue it back together. A lot of scars, exactly like life. Amongst all the unbroken cups it’ll get buried down but what if you put melted gold on those scars, a gold plating over it. Too expensive? I say acrylic paints, go crazy. The same broken cup from being buried down will be back right in front being the most beautiful one. Even a broken piano has a melody of its own. All you gotta do is feel the rhythm.

Just like that, stop hiding, burying yourself under the chase of absolution, running to satisfy others, running away from your imperfections and fears. Let them shape you. Don’t be scared. Don’t fight it, let it flow through you. Then design your life, throw colors, gold, silver, Everything that you want and your imperfections will make you the most beautiful element. Your imperfections will bring out the true beauty inside you. All you need to do is just find the right tools. As I always say have faith in who you are because you never know what you could be. 

Your imperfections will define your beauty. Your imperfections will be the key to your real happiness. You can measure it by all the colors you will put over it, not to hide it but to make something extraordinary, something beautiful out of it. Endure and Embrace what you have and you’ll find happiness in the smallest things in life.

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-Ayush Mishra (Kai)



Truth (0-1)

We act 365 days a year, 24 hours a day, 60 minutes an hour desperately trying to be true to ourselves, trying to justify actions committed to us or committed by us. This urge, perhaps the most powerful hunger, of finding satisfaction often makes us blind to everything. Think hard, do you say you don’t deserve it? Do you feel good can’t happen to you because you’re buried alive under the weight of guilt?

Can you actually define Truth?

How often do you feel that happiness can no longer touch you? In desperate attempts of justifying every second of our act we forget the reality amd beauty of what’s coming to us.

Remember Alternate Reality from last time, demons being so heavy and over whelming that even if someone somehow touch us, in a world of remorse and sorrow, we get a little touch of warmth as a baby sapling, what do we do? These acts of justification, these demons make us kill it before it even begins to sprout. Why do we forget that even the Infinite number line begins from One (1)?  But even for that we gotta try and begin from zero.

The real question comes is to how to get up from zero and reach one? 

I say, Breathe. Take a deep breath, slowly. Feel the oxygen going in. Feel the heart pump. Close your eyes. Let the moment control you. Isolate yourself from everything around and reach the center of your universe. Breathe and clear your thoughts. Feel your senses grow. Let the purity and peace of the moment overcome your demons.

Now you’re in the center of your universe. Surrender to the super power and let out everything inside you, all the emotions, all the urges which lie above your little sapling. 

Were you good or bad? Were you real or fake? Were you worthy or not? 

Stop. Unwanted Acts. Let go !

Endure, Embrace and be thankful. You might have been broken and pushed down to the bottom but you’re alive. You can breathe and let it all out. That sapling is hope but you need ​to have faith. Remember you’ve found your way to the universe now let it reach you.

You have so many small and beautiful things in your life that all together they can outweigh all the pain and suffering you’ve been through. It might be a little sapling but if you take care of it, embrace it, protect it, it’ll grow into a beautiful tree. Congratulate yourself, thank the universe, let your happiness out because you’ve come to one from zero. One tree will be two, two to four, four to farm but you and you are all who is gonna be responsible for it. Now that you’ve find your reason remember Alone but never lonely. 

Do you deserve it? I say it doesn’t matter, you have it. It’s your way to find peace and happiness. Once and only if you break free then only you’ll know that you deserved it because guilt is powerful too. You Know what’s more powerful, our universe but you have to reach out for it.

We believe in things that happen but remember Strong belief in anything is also responsible for that thing to happen. And at the center of all this should be you controlling your universe not your guilt. Stop acting, start living. Don’t runaway, identify and face yourself. Breathe and let go. If needed travel time. Have faith in who you are because you never know how beautiful and majestic you can be. You’re allowed to mourn for your past but it’s meant for learning and growing up. Embrace it and add it to your present experiences and you’ll be the happiest man alive. 

Truth is just a perspective of thought. Belief is what makes it real and you control your belief and its strength. Remember it’s ALL YOU.! 

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-Ayush Mishra



Time Travel (Alternate Reality)

, all that you can do to assure someone that it’s okay. Smile, something you could do to hide everything that you’ve ever been through. It is good to keep your pain to yourself but when you start living it, letting it destroy yourself completely from the inside, smile isn’t enough to get through it. 

Why are we hurt emotionally? Why do even when scar heals, the pain doesn’t go away? Why after years we can still smile but can’t hide the pain anymore? And at last why do we break over again when that smile is touched by someone anymore?

As much as it is challenging for us to accept things getting change around us, it is as challenging for us to look inside and pull through that change within us. The answer to all this, every problem that requires time travel to past can be dealt with.

Yes, demons exist but God didn’t create them. We create our own demons. Remember always life is as complicated as you make it. We know everything, but these demons let us believe that things are supposed to be this way so we run along with it creating another hole for ourselves. Then it goes on and on, one after the other and we create a whole another world of it, just for ourselves. We live it, breath it and then give ourselves to it. I like to call it Alternate Reality. As much as it is vulnerable, it makes us believe so much in it that we build strong walls around it and trap ourselves in it. 

Rewind a bit, do you​ say I wish I could go to the past and change that one moment of my life? Well that physical change is only possible on green screen but you can change something that could help you​ find peace.

Everything we see from the time we’re born to the time we die is in our head, inside our minds. It is extremely important for us to identify how did we create our demon in the first place to which we lost our innocence or inner child. What happens is that growing up eats away our inner child. We burden ourselves so much that we forget how much can we actually handle. The most common feature of anxiety disorder or depression. It is of extreme importance to identify the problem, the answer to what actually happened. A past incident that affects us so deeply which if we don’t handle, in time becomes the reason for creating that Alternate Reality for us. We might forget about it but the demons stays with us because we start living in his world. We lock ourselves in it, in that one moment and the alternate world starts building around it layer by layer.

Take a moment, Close your eyes, think about it. It’s gonna scare you, make you go through tremondous pain. Don’t fight it. Travel the time, go back in past to that moment. Now this Alternate Reality is gonna show you a lot of versions of the problem, but remember it’s not true. None of it. As much​ as the truth is hard, even if you’re the problem, follow the light of truth. Let the pain flow through you in tears but stick to the truth of what exactly happened then. Channel your emotions, see yourself in the past and live that situation all over again.

Now, accept the fact that it’s gone now and you cannot change it but look at yourself. That person over there in that past, see him then see yourself. You SURVIVED it. You’ve grown past it but that child is still stuck there. Even though he’s grown up to become you, he is still LOCKED​ UP IN THAT MOMENT. He needs your help to be free again. Stretch​ out your hands to him, pull him out and tell him,” You are amazing. You held on to it all these years, you’re very strong. Even if it is your fault you SURVIVED.” 

ACCEPT that past to free your inner self. FORGIVE those who created that demon for you even if it was yourself. Once you do just these two things, your Alternate Reality is already broken down to pieces. All you gotta do is just clean it up. Set your emotions free. Once you face your fears and let your emotions flow through you completely, it wouldn’t be just you then. It’ll be your child self holding your hand helping you to actually MOVE ON. You helped him, he’ll help you.

You won’t have to act anymore. You won’t fight yourself anymore. You won’t have nightmares. You’ll never be lonely and YOU CAN SMILE all over again. Remember HAVE FAITH IN WHO YOU ARE. IDENTIFY WHAT YOU FEAR. FACE YOUR PROBLEMS. ACCEPT YOURSELF AND EVERYTHING THAT SHAPED YOU. FORGIVE AND MOVE ON… Travel time to be Happy. Break free​ of your Alternate Reality to Smile. Close your eyes and play with your inner child. 

– Ayush Mishra



Alone but never lonely…

Alone but never lonely

Look outside, look at everything around you. Feel the desires of everyone. These desires which are burning human flesh, poisoning skies, corrupting their souls but you gotta stand above it. Rise from their ashes. Shine bright under the growing old sun, nurture yourself with those poisonous skies, feed from the blood and bones buried under the ground you were planted in. I won’t say you will grow into a beautiful and majestic piece of art but still you gotta be a lot more than you could ever be. 
Save them. If you get leaves, give them clean air to breathe. If you get flowers, give them love. If you get fruits, feed them. If you get thorns, save them from enemity and if you don’t have anything, give them yourself to burn and bring warmth in their life. But save them. They will come to you, rip you apart piece by piece but you have to endure and serve your purpose and then grow back again and again to do the same till you have your last breath in you.
They will scratch your body, break your soul. If not them then the mountains would wanna crush you, floods would wanna drain you, wind would wanna uproot you and fire would wanna burn you. You gotta fight. Be stronger than you’ve ever been. The most important thing to remember is that even if you’re standing ALONE, YOU ARE NEVER LONELY. YOU GOTTA HAVE FAITH IN WHO YOU ARE BECAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU COULD BE.
Live your life endlessly. There will be times when everything will seem impossible. It will be all dark with thunder and lightning all around. It may damage you but if you survive that remember thunder never strikes again twice at the same place which means you’ve beaten it. Give everything you have, serve your purpose, spread happiness, compassion. Support them who need you with all that you have and all that you could ever be.
One day will come when they’ll remember you for it and they’ll come out of their foolish world of endless desires. Someday they would not scratch ever again to gain their benefits and you will be the reason for it. No one says it’s gonna be an easy way till there but remember NIGHT IS DARKEST JUST BEFORE THE DAWN. All the strength you want universe will give it to you and it sure will test it at every point. Live it, bleed it but give it everything you have. Save them. They need you. You might stand ALONE BUT REMEMBER YOU ARE NEVER LONELY. They will be with you. Universe is always with you. Have faith and live selflessly. Never give up.

– Ayush Mishra (Kai)